great...hahax..i shall make tis blog my very personal one ...no one shall get to noe it ..unless they are my best friends...lolx..haiz..feeling sad sad sad .. no more happiness...gone..sobx.. all gone since tat day ...y ?! y all tinks can juz change overnight ..without any warnings..tat is scary ...haiz..i reali wanted to laugh to crap to joke as happily as before...i had tried..but everytime..tat tink juz kept appearing in my mind..making mi so confused..sobx..christmas eve .. i was totally down...i dun have the mood... when chia mi fio jing and huillai went to the arcade at est coast there..i luff ..i smile..i joke..i crap...but..after tat ...i asked myself..wat am i luffing at ...i find tat my luff are so fake...haiz...yah...have i forgotten hw to laugh? hmm...i feel so bu xi guan being ppl de gooseberry...i m sad..but i m still crapping.. yah..i feel happy for my cousin tat she had found her so called happiness... i m oso happy tat i m the 1st one to know in the family...but i feel so huai lian when i saw them..it makes mi tink of my past ... haiz.. xiang lian bian cheng huai lian..xin dong bian xin shui...haiz..tat is mi now ... diff ppl gifing diff comments..who should i listen to ... obviously ..actuali the one i should b listening to is myself...my heart...but i m juz too confused..haiz..broken heart broken relationship broken promises...sobx...whr is myself???