a big HAIZ...! sobx sobx sobx...i so sad...haiz..went to kbox wif tian todae...SING! sing all our heart our...but i m still sad..and i tink tian oso sad de bahx..no one can cheer mi up...no one...everyone juz ask mi dun tink too much..dun sad...etc..but i cant...i cant control ... i cant control my own feeling..if i can..things will b easier..and is damn easy ..i hope i really can ...i want to take away all my she bu de in my heart and forget him! and juz let the feeling fate away...i hope i can..i reali hope so...argh~! haiz..i hate my stubborness...sobx...juz nw tian hlp mi call him..as i dun have the courage to do so ...i feel so useless..he sae he not free ...fine...den i nth much to sae le...i pass it to tian...tian sae tat i wanna pass him his present...ask him when free...haiz..does he bother? i dun tink so..he sae he not free...but his background sound so quiet..dun seem lyk he is outside...is he lying to mi? haiz..hope tat my tinking is wrong..sobx...i wanted to ask him can i still trust his words? his'i will b back'? can i ? can i put hopes on it...haiz..i dun noe..i wanted to ask him...but since he sae he not free...den suan le..sobx...i guessed i nd to have lots and lots of courage to do so...but nw...haiz..no more courage...i hate him..he take away my happiness...he take away my laugh..ah...but i still loved him...i feel lyk i m a fool man...haiz..i hate but i love...=(